Delicious Journal •´¯♡*

Yum yum. More journal pages. Please eat them and feel good. The journal had water spilled on it recently, but made a miraculous recovery.

This (↑) is probably my favourite page. Two glorious little creatures, floating in the sky. I just like their shapes a lot. Last week I watched 2010: The Year we Made Contact, the sequel to 2001: A Space Odyssey, and that film really matches the first in many cases in terms of visuals. It's different, but I really liked it. I love all the tech forms, blinking buttons, etc. Just thinking about space. Made me wanna be some kind of engineer. But I never will be!

Here we have Cinnamoroll, that dear little dog, expertly sitting on my boarding pass. Thanks, dog. My favourite detail of this spread is that hand reaching up from somewhere unseen to almost touch the topmost dog's nose. That's me, spiritually.

This one is obviously a celebration of Hello Kitty, but the horse is really important. It would be nothing without the horse.

Banana drawing. No explanation needed. I love the brown spots forever.

I drew this during my Barbie in the Nutcracker (2001) video research. Beautiful couple. Barbie and her sweet nut.

In March I had the absolute pleasure of seeing Jonathan Richman in Brooklyn. He was amazing. He was wonderful. He was perfect. It was such a relaxing show, too - I rested a bag of bread against the stage for most of it.

The Spongebob here is really accurate.

Snake in my boot. This just came straight from the dome. Sometimes you're thinking about snakes in boots.

Picasso was Wacky!

 Two years ago I went to the Picasso museum in Barcelona, and there was one room I loved in particular. It had paintings of a woman holding an egg (she's just like me fr), among other things.

Finally, this month, I drew two of them. My own beautiful little Picassos.

When you look around the room in question, you'll see numerous versions of the same painting. There's something almost childlike about seeing iteration after iteration of the same thing, the same picture in different shapes, warped into oblivion. It's this amazing, revealing space that perfectly communicates the impossibility of documentation. 

Clearly Picasso was not trying to meticulously depict reality as he saw it, but in the repetition of these subjects it gives the feeling of an endless, shifting dream. Every time you look back, something has changed.

It's also just really cool on a formalistic level, seeing the endless variations that are possible while a scene is still recognisable.

And here is our egg woman. God, I love her.

Look at these three paintings of three ladies with a cat:

They're so different and so perfect and so fun! And I have to think, then, that a lot of the point of Picasso's weird, wonky shapes was to construct something funny. Like, look at those faces. That's peak funny. That would be enjoyed very much by a general Tumblr audience (the supreme art connoisseurs).

It truly makes the concept of doing five thousand paintings of the same exact thing (edit: in this case, studies of Diego Velázquez's 'Las Meninas') seem extremely appealing. What if I did this? It would be a really good project, I think. But what is the perfect subject? Impossible to choose.

To conclude, check out this cute plate Picasso made:

hehe :-)

Lazy

Good morning. The air is luscious and there are three beds in the apartment. One ultra soft, one absurdly firm at first touch, and one sort of normal. A true Goldilocks type situation. I am in a haze, just filled with that deep, utter exhaustion that comes after long flights or arguments. I am sunk into my own cloudy mind and it feels small in here in a way that I always enjoy. Like a feathery pillow is all around my thoughts, a cushion on each wall. And I think it’s funny, by the way, to imagine my head as a room. It makes me think of BBC Sherlock’s iconic mind palace, but his seemed far too active. There is no wooshing around this room. This room is about chilling, and lying down. It’s nice.

There are golden geometric patterns on the curtains, a series of connected cubes on royal blue. It’s very “showroom” somehow, but I like the way the dim, warm lamplight reflects against those lines of gold, making it seem thicker and brighter in some places, like when more ink comes out of a pen.

I got up ravenous earlier, and ate cold Domino’s cheesy bread. God’s own delicious bounty. Eating that, covering myself with a soft blue blanket, knowing the air outside is cool, but too crisp. These are the things to love with a half dormant brain, on a sweet January Wednesday.

Later I will watch a movie and wake up and rest my journal on my lap, compare the uneven pencils and draw myself and all the animals with long necks. Giraffes, llamas, pelicans. It’s a pretty day full of nothing.

Let it last forever.

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It’s almost 11am, and I’m hungry. Why is it that hunger feels like a little animal biting your insides? I want to learn everything, every word stored neatly in my head, on dark mahogany shelves, organised alphabetically and shaped like swirling galaxies, twinkling in soft purples like a field of lilacs growing in an endless black lake.

You can get these microwavable breakfast sandwiches, croissant style with bacon and eggs. It’s sort of disgusting, and the directions tell you to wrap a paper towel around it when you heat it up. I think of Victorian children surveying this great marvel of technology. We are preserving too much. Nothing is perishable. I stuff a salty nugget of bacon into my mouth. It’s good. The Victorian children in my mind scramble for a morsel. I don’t let them have it. It’s all mine. I’m alive, after all, and a fully grown woman. Life should be warm, delicious, and a little bit disgusting for me.

Bags.

I uninstalled tiktok this morning. I choose not to hear anything more about Ethan Slater, and his ragged face, a cooked Illumination Studios character. I’m not doing it. I can read or force myself to study more. I’m not hearing any other girls’ sad dating stories or skincare recommendations or endless two word style terms that describe nothing. It pisses me off. I’d rather cry a little pool into my pillow. I’d rather stare out the window, clean the sink. I’d rather do anything.

All my journal pages, slammed on the screen

 Ain't nothing better than this. Pencil & pencil & pencil & pencil.

Rat & Borzoi

 Are you ever in full rat mode? I was, when I drew this rat:

The rat is an elusive creature. Small, sweet, ready to rip a slice of pizza from your hands (probably). And I like to make him much more blue, a rat dipped in ocean. A rat full of life. I don't know. There's something perfect about the rat.

Here's an ABANDONED drawing:

In the end, I didn't finish it, but nevertheless I like this long-snouted, forlorn dog. She has seen many things, and she has judged.

Tokyo Journal

I made a bunch of journal spreads while I was in Tokyo. Just a good way to collect tickets and miscellaneous other bits of paper. It's a nice record of some things. I bought some stickers from a cute little second hand shop I found, and tried to scrapbook tons of stuff, but I was most inspired by the stamps you can find all over the place, in train stations and stuff.

The Ueno stamp on the first page here was really the catalyst to it all. So anyway, here are the pages: